🔒 Shadow Krewe
The Rose Room
For longing, crushes, and learning to stop abandoning yourself. Bring the texts you almost sent.
- Crush debrief
- Red flag / green flag
- Text-before-you-text
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Tab 04 · Section 01
The Group Chat.
For the lovers, chasers, over-givers, and everybody learning not to abandon themselves. The texts we screenshot to talk about later.
Tasha
GIRL he just liked your photo from 2022 💀
Me
stop. STOP. tell me you screenshotted it.
Tasha
obviously. attaching now.
Jaida
block him. like fully. for your peace.
Me
i can't. i WANT to know what he's doing.
Tasha
and that's why you're texting us at 1am instead of sleeping ❤️
screenshot evidence. ↑
mostly Tasha. always Tasha.
mostly Tasha. always Tasha.
Tab 04 · Section 02 · The Love Letter Graveyard
My ex's hoodie.
Letters I wrote and never sent. Boys whose names I crossed out. Songs I had to delete.
names I crossed out:
Devonte · Marcus · the bass player · the one from camp · J.Admit one
last movie
never again
no. 055
Admit one
prom 2024
he stood me up
no. 086
Tab 04 · Section 03
Ask Raeni.
Slide a question under the door. I read all of them. I answer the ones that need it most in the next issue.
this week's letter:
Dear Raeni, my best friend started ignoring me after I got with her crush. I didn't know. She won't talk to me.
— Kindred, listen. you didn't know. that matters. but also her feelings are real. write the letter you've been avoiding. don't apologize for liking him — apologize for not asking. and then leave space. she'll come back when she's ready. if she doesn't, that's a different friendship than you thought it was. either way you'll be ok. love, R.
Tab 04 · Section 04 · The Field Guide
Green flags. Red flags. The matrix.
Print this out. Tape it to your bathroom mirror. Refer back when you forget.
🟢 green flags
texts back like a normal person
remembers what you said three weeks ago
asks before he posts your photo
your friends like him without forcing it
your nervous system is QUIET around him
apologizes without being asked twice
🚩 red flags
love-bombs you for three weeks then disappears
calls you 'crazy' for feeling things
asks you to keep secrets from your friends
your stomach hurts before you see him
explains away every red flag with a sob story
his ex 'is crazy.' (his exes are not all crazy.)
Tab 04 · Section 05 · A love letter to me
The letter I wrote to myself.
Because somebody had to. Read this when nobody else is texting back.
Dear me,
You are the longest love story you will ever have. I'm sorry I forgot. I'm sorry I treated you like a project. I'm sorry I let people who didn't earn it speak to you in voices I would have slapped a stranger for using.
We are starting over tonight. From here on out: when somebody says something cruel about you, I get the first word back. And the word is always: not anymore.
You don't have to earn rest. You don't have to earn the cute thing in the cart. You don't have to earn being loved by yourself first.
You just have to stay. I'll do the rest.
love,
me ✿
Shadow Krewe · behind the door
Love & Rest is for naming the ache. The Rose Room is for the work — crush debriefs, boundary scripts, the red/green flag notebook, and learning not to abandon yourself.